I have a confession to make...
I can not look at that picture for to long..
Because it is a huge struggle for me not to want to light it up!
I've been keeping a secret.
A bad secret and I am extremely disappointed in myself.
After 5 long healthy years of quitting smoking
I started again.
It started a few weeks ago while we were in Florida.
While sitting at the tiki bar with Paul aka Papa, sipping my chocolate banana daiquiri
(which by the way, is delicious)
I would take puffs of his cigarette until eventually i was smoking my own.
I've had about 4 or 5 ( SECRET) cigarettes a day since then.
The other day I came home from work and sat in the garage and smoked a ciggy with Paul.
I said out loud "I can't believe that I am smoking again!"
and he said, "I know and I am sorry"
He thinks that it is his fought and he feels guilty for giving me one WHEN I ASKED FOR IT.
I feel bad that he feels responsible.
I'm a big girl and made my own bad choices.
I'm the dumb ass who wanted one!!
So.. Today Is my first attempt in what will be another long journey to give up the habit
Pardon my grumpiness!
On the Martha Stewart show this week
she had Ralph Laurens beautiful daughter Dylan Lauren on to teach us how to create
pretty table centerpieces/ gifts made from candy.
She made a gorgeous urn of Hydrangea's made from m&m's and gummies, etc.
I thought that she was pretty cool!!
Everyone in the audience received a copy of her book.
I was super excited about this book and couldn't wait to explore it's contents myself.
I got it yesterday.
It's good book, very visual appealing but am I sad to say that it wasn't what I thought that it would be.
I was hoping to see more things like this...
and more creative ideas..
but instead i found more facts and history about Dylan and candy.
I would say that it is a fun book to look at
... but I recommend saving yourself the $30.00 it cost
and borrow it from the library for free.
Have a great Saturday friends.
It is time for this gal to get busy!